This girl. How close her resemblance to my old self. I’m used to be just like her, a ferocious lunatic barbaric bigot dispute-mongering who likes to yell, argue and brawl with other people for -what i believe- “holy crusade”. Wandering around (social media) to hunt, take down and execute -what do i call- “sinner”, “heretic”, “blasphemer”, “infidel” and “enemy of God”. Those who are familiar with me within 2-7 years ago will truly understand how wicked i am back then. People around me always brood the time that soon will be their turn to feel my vicious wrath and deplorable merciless from me.

Until i met that one man -yeah, just like her met the Guts-. The one i disfavor for his siding with -what do i perceive- “non-catholic” faction. Unexpectedly, after miscellaneous occurance, the one whom i sincerely detest became the one who alter my mind, perspective and religion’s view. That time, he’s the one i’m look up to, my inspiration, source of my strenght, my teacher and someone i admire. Gradually, the life of “sinner”, “heretic”, “blasphemy”, “infidel” i’m used to loathe it now it’s become part of my life as you see right now. Just like her, loahing the witches and buckle down to obliterate them, now she’s begging to learn magic from Schierke, a great witch’s disciple. Even Seprico in an extreme shock that she who being the real zealot of the Order, now wanna be a witch like Shierke.

I’m hoping that i’m not being a corrupt self just like Kotomine Kirei becoming twisted self as Gilgamesh delude him for the -apparently- path of “enjoyment”. I’m hoping that i’m still in the right path and right choice to become the secured pure of myself. I’m deeply regret the life i chosse then. How many people have been sufferred because of my brutality and how vacuous i am for being like that? When she feels sympathy towards a priest of Enoch village that being nut just like her old self, that’s what i feel everytime i look back my past and whenever i do introspecting, as well as whenever other people act like i did back then.

Now i’m enjoying the life i hate used to disdain it not simply because i’m yearning and longing for it. But i’m simply trying to escape the agnoy that i bear and carry on, owing to my reckless for my past. Perhaps you can call it redeem the yesterday’s maniac ruthless with sozzled jolity. Old friends of mine that have a long history with me would think i’m right now turn into a devil consuming tainted pleasurement, but it doesn’t seem as they perceived. Their slender minded is the impediment to discren the truth.