To be writer, huh? I think that’s only a few things that i have in my soul. Writing about my idea, my own philosophy, my story, my experience, my feeling, my school of thought and… composing the poem. So much my affection towards this kind of hobby and my pleasure activity.

My love to writing could traced back when i was form 5. But my flair is focused more on Bahasa Melayu. My English were pretty dissatisfied. I’m not sure if getting B in that subject in SPM is a fair triumph, but for me, it wasn’t enough. And thanks for my spending a lot of time to anime, my English is getting improvement and more refined than i was used to be. If you’re reading this now, it’s an anime’s subtitle that help me out to reach this level.

I’m still treasuring this interest despite of end of my secondary school’s time. Perhaps the rage religion movement in my area and my surrounding inspiring me, so i keep working on the writing for radical article and building an argument or its counter from my nemesis.

At the same time, i have a kind of interest to compose poem. I’ve no idea why, but i’m hearing my grandmother said that she love composing the poem and keeping it somewhere (i can’t recall it, but my hazy memory directed to the box). Maybe i’m inherit this avocation and its sprang up in my heart.

Today, after experiencing miscellaneous sort of life’s episode, never it was faded away and the event i’ve been through led me to the point where you’re looking at and knowing me right here and right now. I may have a different view, opinion and dimension of mind as i’m before. Notwithstanding, writing is what embedded in my whole life.

I keep on writing even though people don’t or won’t read it and don’t give a damn about that. I believe i’m partly in spreading a good vibe to everyone and generation as long as it’s a beneficiary material, worth to read it. Someday, there will be a people who take a regard of my pieces and work and they will appreciate what do i have contribute. I carve this in my belief.

One day, i see the revelation of how true it was. You know, i’m burst into tears of joy. Just like a people who lost, wandered in the nowhere of darkness found the light he have been dream for it. Thousand of my gratitude express won’t be enough to thanks for the attention towards my scrap of a little paper. That’s what content me as an isolated writer. Thank you for your regard.

Thanks also if my writing is giving you inspiring or influence in your life. That’s what i’ve been wishing too in my life. To be someone who could contribute something good for society. I do acknowledge that i still have a long road to reach some point which is needed to be a prominent paragon even reeks of experience i’ve been through, but if my path could bring you in the same journey in my path which you think it’s a best choice, i do not have a despair more. Thank you.

I’ve a dream. Someday i’ll be a thinker figure for Muslim’s fellow for tajdid (reformation) movement, refreshment for our mind’s frame and revolutionizing our thought upon our sacred religion’s interpretation to support my school of thought. Yeah, i’ve my own developed altogether my standpoint and prepared piece of work. Right now, the only left is ready to assemble and deploy it.

Of course, it goes without saying that it’s not a simple task to make it successful. I’ve been testing out how the acceptance of society towards a drip of my idea. Firstly, i’m planned only distributed the idea around my friend’s circle. Unexpectedly, it seems like i’m more popular than i anticipate and i’ve no idea that so much eyes are discerning my move. Promptly, it’s reached out notable salafist in no time.

Yeah, you can guess it. It’s rendering a heat controversy up till salafist and Asy'ari-Syafi'i-Sufi (or well-known as Aswaja) ganging up against me when both of this creed is quarreling each other to gain domination. I knew this will be happen and i’ve been considering this rebellion. You can’t blame them for neglect to be more open-minded upon new idea. It’s natural from the past until now that philosopher always facing tragic tribulation for their revolution of idea and thinking.

Even if i wouldn’t attain what i’m dream for, then it’s okay. I leaving it for those who are truly want to clutch the benefit of my insight. My writing and piece is already displayed in public but in a somewhere “isolated” place. Feel free to read if it’s pique you. And i will keep writing and growing up more compelling even people are try to impede my path.

Also, i’ve a dream to write more about what do i grasp in anime; its philosophy, thought, idea and history. Because of my spending time in anime is somewhat significant, so i don’t want to waste my time only just watching and just let it be a bygone leisure. And for my tribute of its deeds towards mine.

For instance, i’ve been working out to write about analysis of art of war and strategic battle in the anime Bungou Stray Dogs. But, for crying out loud, i need to read the Kissinger and Schelling’s work or other scholar before i could make it one. As well as personality of anime character by specific. Such as villain’s personality in Accelerator, nihilist in Tomura Shigaraki (because i think he is resembling the Joker) and many more. The problem is i still lack of necessary knowledge to put up the framework, then becoming a piece to enjoy it. Anyhow, hopefully i could make it realize someday.

Thank you for my babling diary. Hope we all getting to know each other more better.

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